I have not written a post in a while. I am writing, just not here. I actually resisted for a long while to write. Something about it being permanent. If I wrote it down it must be true. Now I am actually really enjoying writing. Just a little bit everyday as I practice meditating. Write about observations when I manage to be present in the moment. I want to share something I wrote for a nice newsletter that has to do with the survivors of child sexual abuse and violence. I did the writing of the article I submitted but asked my wonderful husband to edit. He is a great writer and I usually ask him to read things that I am about to submit to the world. But take a look http://www.menspeakoutnow.com/WSOissue5.pdf It is called, All journeys begin with a single step. Please also check out the web site and their message. It is an important one.
What else am I upto these days? I am reading a long list of books. Good books. Really good books. I keep thinking, whow..this is the best book I have read in a long time, and then another and then another. Hmmm…I think there is something to be said about when the student is ready the teacher shows up. That is what I am feeling when I am find myself in awe from learning from these books. So what are some of these books. I will post some of them under my favorite but let me start with this one. Becoming Attached, Robert Karen Ph.D. It took a few months to read but I cried when I was done. It was really powerful reading for me.
I was placed in an orphanage as an infant for about 6 months or so. I never even considered that that could have had an impact on me. So reading this book, opened up an awareness and understanding of how I had taken on some behavior or believes as a very little girl about the world and my place in it. Long story short it was profound for me to read. I felt a rush of gratitude for having found this book and the information in it. My compassion for myself grew and my understanding of why I have struggled with intimacy also grew. I have communicated this to my husband and we now both feel more compassion for one another based on what we have learned and try to provide what was missing as we grew up as children. A safe person to attach to!
If you feel like you struggle with being close to people and push people away, even the ones that you know you love and want to be close to, this book is good to read.
