Ok Ok, I know I can be a bit extreeme, according to my husband. Perhaps not a habit yet, but I am definitely focused on getting information up on this site. It is actually starting to look like a site. So my extreme habits of seeing the world in black and white, either – or is another consequence from surviving child sexual abuse. The wires get all twisted up, all or nothing, good or bad, safe or not safe, love and sex. Get’s hard to separate all these things when you learn about them in the wrong order, and the people that were supposed to teach you about love and trust…are the people that abuse you. Your brain or nervous system is not even cabable of sorting this out. It takes a lifetime. Here I am going on 41. Do not take me wrong…I am a pretty happy person today, definitely not dvelling on my misery. I just can’t afford it, meaning I have 3 kids that I am determined to model what it is like to be a true adult. My biggest challenge is to model self love – to take good care of me. To eat well, exercise and rest. We are getting there….or according to my new beliefs, I am there! Don’t know if you have heard about the Secret? www.secret.tv Enjoy!
Busy these last few days with this site and my work in Iceland. I need to contribute to the annual report and the stats from our web site. I am also this week starting to promote the prevention training I facilitate called Stewards of children. More about that under prevention on this site. I am doing this training in April (Child abuse prevention month) with the organization I belong to called AVI or authentic voices international. A peer support group for survivors of child sexual abuse. We are hoping to educate adults in our community how to prevent child sexual abuse. It is a really good training, for anyone! You can check it out at www.darknesstolight.org
I called Starbucks yesterday to give us some coffee for the event and they agreed. The store manager was so friendly and helpful. I figured it was perfect since they are located just across the street from where we are hosting this event. This organization is a great place to come and meet other survivors. This one is here in San Diego, CA.
